Acting

Today is Sunday. I get today and tomorrow off. On Monday's I always go into Sooke or Victoria, but Sunday, this day of the week has nothing designated to it.

I was pulling the irrigation hoses out of the gardens today. This is one of the things that has been added to my "to do" list, and in doing so, is part of the "you get money now" agreement. At the farm I am temporary. My purpose is to provide cheap labour. That's the reason I am able to be here. Sometimes it becomes apparent that I am simply fulfilling a need. Once that need is no more, I am no more. Well that creates a lack of investment on both my part, and the other farm dwellers parts.

I was pulling the hoses out of the garden, lining them along the six foot wire fence that keeps deer out of the gardens (rather unsuccessfully). For keeping certain people's business, their business, I'll just say that Grandma and granddaughter were in the garden. Grandma was explaining to granddaughter that sometimes mom's get sad and they need to be alone. It was a beautiful moment. And there I was, simply fulfilling the farm needs - a bystander to the events of people's lives.

I feel like a stage assistant simply watching the actors live their lives here at the farm. I make sure the farm is operating successfully. I do the dishes in the kitchen and I set up for the market. The stage is set and the actors live out their lives, well I sit back and I watch.

That's what it feels like sometimes.