Drinking tea and making crafts. I wish I had unlimited access to an art store right now. And a knitting store. I have creativity running through my veins and my only release as of now is writing. My notebook pages are filling up, becoming more and more full of light. I look at writings from a year ago and they were full of frustration and bitterness.

I honestly feel like I have more hope and excitement in my life then I have for quite some time. Nothing much in my life has changed as of recent, simply a feeling of freedom and a change in my mindset towards things to come. I feel at peace with where I am and where I'm going. I have plans. The things in my life right now are part of those plans.

Mmm hmmm. Feels good.

Enjoyed a beautiful day today. I biked quite the distance today to North Vancouver's, Lynn Canyon Park. There was fog in the actual canyon so unfortunately I couldn't manage to get a great photo. The suspension bridge was really incredible - definitely not ideal for someone with a fear of heights. The bike ride was intense. I have never ridden uphill so much - ever. I guess that sort of thing will happen when you attempt to ride up the side of a mountain. The ride home was lovely! All in all, I had a thoroughly enjoyable day.

This week there has been much talk of plans, the more conventional ones. For example; receiving an undergraduate degree, getting a job, and getting hitched. The more I speak with people, the more I realize that my discomfort with that plan is common. And common among those older than myself - people who have lived more years and experienced more things.

I am proud of myself. I am. I am not settling. For a while I have thought, perhaps I was foolish. Perhaps stupid.

I am happy though. Plans that involve more risk have a greater level of gain. And sometimes the greatest plans take the greatest amount of time. I have taken a risk, and though right now my life is not exactly what I want it to look like I'm aware that I have to work hard. For me to be satisfied I have to dream big and work hard. That excites me. I'm not settling, despite wanting things to be easier sometimes. I think that truly, I'm working towards what I want in my life. And I'm working really hard at it. Moving to a completely new place teaches you how to be an individual and rely on the abilities you have, and recognize what makes you unique.

I have a good life, and I think it's only going to get better.

(especially because the forecast for tomorrow is sunshine)